Imprisioned...

Days have become very much insignificant without any specific reason... I am waking up in the morning, getting involved in playing one of my all time favourite games, Max Payne 2.. Seeing people shedding blood... Going into next level... Shedding of more and more blood... More and more curse I’m getting from them... And a foolish me, trying to get enjoyment from their graves... I plan to get up at 9.30 am everyday... And every morning the biological alarm makes me awake at the 7.30 am... I wish to sleep for some more time.. But this wish vanishes suddenly... And the same frustrating routine.. Everyday expecting phone calls from my friends... My mind shouts, “I want to talk to you people” but I resist because they are may be busy in their own world... Then a short period of listening to music... The same songs which I have heard numerous times before... They don’t create the same great feelings inside my veins... The world seems to be insignificant... Still I’m not trying to find an answer of these.... May be I know the answer.... May be I knew it from the very beginning....Imprisonment....

People r changing...In d past three years,I have seen 3000 masks of 30 persons...I hardly know any one of them...What I thought were only my imagination:'they are my friends'.(not everyone, some are really my good friends)They hardly have any time to call a friend...They hardly have any moment to gossip together...I feel jealous when I see 6 friends chatting together...Different people have different thoughts about life...Can't we friends share them? Or, should we remain as strangers, but say people "we are friends?'

After a long two and a half years of belief and broken belief,I had started to trust a person.Sorry!!!Do not think dat I am speaking about the damn 'love' thing...I'm sorry to use 'damn' but that very thing has spoilt 2 and a half year of my life!!!! I disbelieved people,for which anyone can blame me,but I'm sorry to say I was not like this before.Somebody was just enjoying her life leaving me in pain!!!But,these things does not really matter for me today..The fact is that,a friend came into my life with lots of fun and craziness!!!This crazy person had done magic tricks or something like that on me!!Oh my God,I started to believe people!!I was believing even them who had broken my trust!!I started to realise the fact that when you are disbelieving yourself,you can not believe anyone.Oh my God, I started to believe myself,once again!! I said sorry (probably 4 da 1st time by heart) to that girl who had punished me for loving her...I had to say her sorry because I know,from some part I was guilty too..

This post is for the friend,who has changed my attitude towards my life....Thank you,Pagli....For gifting me my childishness...For showing the path of self belief........Thank you,for being my friend........

Forgotten Revolution

Simple lives,scattering on the street;
Not alive,only a heap of bones,unburnt,
And a feeble cry:
Comes the forgotten revolution...

What I Wanted to Escape....

Smell of cloudless sky,crying;
What I wanted to escape
Stole my soul in the glamourous world.
Simplicity,so complex you were!
Alleys and narrow lanes,I wonder
Has left me alone in the streets-
Known faces,but shadowing gestures
Laughing and whispering:everywhere.
Waiting for a jocund peace,at last
She came, with cloudlets,clouds and
Pain,after a shining day dream
Left me in the rain.......